GUNDIK

Maaf Saya tidak bisa membagi dirinya untuk kalian.

Saya mengampuninya dan dia telah memilih Saya

Saya pun sedang berjuang menyembuhkan luka hati saya sendiri.

Hapuslah airmata kalian..

Saya tau ini tidak mudah menyembuhkan luka

sekaligus menghapus cinta di hati kalian.

Percayalah..akan ada seseorang yg Tuhan telah siapkan untuk kalian

Doa Saya menyertai wahai perempuan-perempuan baik...

"Guide Me All The Way" (Maher Zain)

I know that You could easily
Take away every thing You’ve given me
And I try to remember
Not to take anything for granted
‘Cause I know that one day
Suddenly this will all come to an end
So my last wish is for you to be pleased with Me

Allah, Ya Allah
Guide me all the way to your Jannah
Ya Allah, Ya Allah
Don’t let me go astray ’cause I need you
By my side, I wish to be close
Close to You throughout my life
Ya Allah, oh Allah!
Be with me all the way

I know that sometime I do
I do forget that my next breath could be the last
Forgive me ’cause I cant thank you enough
Forgive me when I doubt your love
Now I pray for that day
when all this stops and comes to an end
So my last wish is for You to be pleased with me

Allah, Ya Allah
Guide me all the way to your Jannah
Ya Allah, Ya Allah
Don’t let me go astray ’cause I need you
By my side, I wish to be close
Close to You throughout my life
Ya Allah, oh Allah!
Be with me all the way

Day by day passes
And I think that my time could be near
So I pray: O God let this world be in my hands
And not in my heart
‘Cause soon I’ll have to leave it [x2]

Allah, Ya Allah
Guide me all the way to your Jannah
Ya Allah, Ya Allah
Don’t let me go astray ’cause I need you
By my side, I wish to be close
Close to You throughout my life
Ya Allah, oh Allah!
Be with me all the way
[x2]

Guide me all the way
Don’t let me go astray

I Believe...(Maher Zain)

When you're searching for the light 

And you see no hope in sight 

Be sure and have no doubt 

He's always close to you
He's the one who knows you best

 He knows what's in your heart 

You'll find your peace at last 

If you just have faith in Him
You're always in my heart and mind 

Your name is mentioned every day

 I'll follow you no matter what

 My biggest wish is to see you one day

I believe I believe 

Do you believe, oh do you believe?
Coz I believe 

 In a man who used to be 

So full of love and harmony

 He fought for peace and liberty 

And never would he hurt anything 

He was a mercy for mankind

 A teacher till the end of time

 No creature could be compared to him 

So full of light and blessings
You're always in my heart and mind 

Your name is mentioned every day

 I'll follow you no matter what

 If God wills we'll meet one day

If you lose your in a better day 

Trials will come 

But surely they will fade away 

If you just believe 

What is plain to see

 Just open your heart 

And let His love flow through
I believe I believe, I believe I believe 

And now I feel my heart is at peace
I believe I believe, I believe I believe

LELAAAHHHH!!!!

“ Kameranya ada dmn ? aku ingin melambaikan tangan. Pertanda aku sudah tidak sanggup. “

Yah sewaktu-waktu aku merasakan ini, menyerah pada akhirnya. Rasanya udah cukup lelah.

Berkali-kali membatin apa aku yg terlalu bodoh atau terlalu buta atau memang terlalu sayang.

Masalah yang sama, hubungan yg naik turun ini membuat emosi menggila. Sampe kapan begini? Aku mencoba untuk berpikir positif tapi gak bisa, aku mencoba menyibukkan diri tapi dadaku tetap sakit memikirkan hal2 yg tidak2 yg bisa saja benar terjadi, seperti kecurigaan2ku selama ini yg memang terbukti.

Rasanya gak mudah ya kembali mempertahankan hubungan yg seperti ini. Apakah aku sanggup mendampinginya dengan perasaan yg terus tersakiti seperti ini?

Ya Allah apakah yg Engkau perlihatkan selama ini pertanda ataukah hanya ujian cinta ? beri aku gambaran yg jelas ya Allah, apakah yg Engkau mau aku lakukan. Ya Allah jika cinta ini tidak Engkau ridhoi , tidak baik untuk agama dan akhirat kami, maka lepaskanlah ikatan ini. Berilah kami kesabaran dan kekuatan. Tetapi jika Engkau ijinkan maka satukanlah kami, ridhoilah perjalanan cinta kami menuju surgaMu.

Ya Allah aku lelah...teramat lelah....